Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Zen Hummingbird

Watching
an improbable
hummingbird
dart beneath
my deck,
I wonder
how being
without thinking
must feel.
Good,
I imagine.
- mce

Hearing Deficit Disorder

If you have never
heard God laugh at you,
you need to listen closer.
- mce

Long Ago Morning - Via Sappho

Just as day broke,
mission safely over,
red tracers reached up
to grab our chopper:
Ah, the rosy-fingered dawn!
- mce

Breakfast Thought

How easy
to bite off
more than you
can chew;
how difficult
not to choke
on it.

- mce

Monday, August 3, 2009

Squirrel Relativity

The squirrel
that regularly
visits my deck,
blinks at me
through
the dirty
plate glass,
unconcerned
as a fat, gray
Buddha,
just going about
his business,
casually and
without concern.
I can almost
hear him thinking:
what is that
in there?
- mce

Why Suicide Remains Only A Comforting Notion

The hooples say
life is all about
making good choices.

A quart of whiskey
and a forty-five
could end this madness
in less than a blink.

How strong
the raging temptation
to act a god!

Yet somehow,
with my luck,
I'd manage to miss.
- mce

Explanation - for JLB

"Hearts will never be made practical
until they are made unbreakable."
- Tinman (Wizard of Oz)

Met you
in a moment
of anguish;
loved you
in a time
of trouble;
lost you
to a world
wider
than mine.

Shouldn't
have done
any of it
at all.

Should have
known better;
should have been
practical.

But I couldn't
help myself,
and I'm glad of it:

you altered
my universe.
- mce

Spring Creek Haiku

Rushing creek water:
the earth wants to have it back;
soon it will be gone.
- mce

LZ Serenity - Front and Back - Beautiful High Summer Morning

Front

Back

Saturday, August 1, 2009

How To Look At A Naked Woman

Appreciate the flesh,
but examine the heart;
one lasts,
the other can't.
- mce

True Love

All the lost loves
of my life
have prepared me
for you.
Isn't it about time
you show up?
- mce

First Things First

The heart
grows weary
of endless
debate.

Abstraction:
a human talent,
but not
a human virtue.

Keep it simple,
concrete, and local.

What can be touched,
can be counted upon.

Live now;
die later.

In between,
be alive
to the glory
and possibility
of Creation.

Pursue the eternal
through the portal
of your living flesh.

Difficult,
frustrating,
necessary.

If only this
can be done,
it is enough.
- mce

OK, Let Us Try Again

"To be alive is to be broken; to be broken is to stand in need of grace."
- Brennan Manning, The Ragamuffin Gospel

Morning pokes a hole
in the nightmare fabric
of my tortured dreams.

Sunlight floods in,
soothing my heart
with green and bird song
and the gentleness
of flowing creek water.

Unexpected respite;
undeserved relief.

Coffee and Mozart
in a cathedral of trees;
a wafting breeze
caressing my mortal skin.

All good reasons
to try
to live another day.

Funny how often
beauty follows despair;
how the voice of God
lifts and sings out
in the jagged desert
of the broken soul.

Perhaps, this
is what is meant
by Grace.
- mce

Friday, July 31, 2009

MIA

Some evenings,
the voice
you don't hear
cries out
in your heart.
- mce

The Bitching Blues

Bored shitless,
pottering about the shack,
chain-smoking,
nothing compelling to read,
out of beer,
too early
to get high,
no one to talk with,
same birds and trees,
even the creek
sounds repetitive.

Oh, these mad,
unsettled days:
how they do wear.

Sometimes the desire
just to drive
until I am out
of gas and money
becomes a mania.

Contentment,
what did you say
your address was?

I'd like to visit
for a while.
- mce

Chewing The Cud Of Memory And Divorce - For Uli

Our marriage
began with laughter,
lust, hopes, plans
and the desire
to last until
death parted us.

It ended
with harsh words,
icy silences,
disdain, contempt
and flight.

Between the two
a lifetime leaked away.

Was it worth it?

This question,
and what went wrong,
will haunt me
to my death.
- mce

A Very Real Disease

Money makes men mad.

Caught in the dollar,
they lose touch
with the real values
beyond the cash nexus,
forget that love and loyalty,
friendship and honesty,
outlast worldly treasure;
forget that green
is the color
of more than currency.

They know the price,
but not the place;
the cost of living,
but not the worth.

Iniquitous Mammon,
twists the souls of men,
infecting most,
exempting few,
reducing life's joys
to the tedious,
inhuman bottom line.
- mce

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Please Barmaid, Not Another Round!

So much rain.

I feel more and more
like a drenched mammal,
less and less
like a human.

And yet it continues.

Branch and creek surge,
tree leaves drip tears,
blueberries burst,
everywhere sticky mud.

The earth cannot
absorb this
this fluid bounty,
precious and necessary,
but too much,
too quickly.

As with life's often
painful torrents,
this would be easier
to sip than gulp.

And yet,
we are bound
to drink up
all we are served.
- mce

The View From The Dump Truck

The beauty
of high summer
just past its apogee.

Iron weed, bull thistle,
chicory, goldenrod.

Fields mown earlier,
left alone since,
restore themselves
to abundant,
tenacious life.

This moment explodes,
ripe and fecund,
warm and verdant,
green and glowing.

Yet, even now,
autumn whispers
its soft hello
as winter,
just behind,
looks upon the scene,
patiently waiting.

Seasons upon seasons,
change and renewal,
never ending.
-mce

For My Son, As His World Changes

"Courage is the virtue upon which all other virtues depend." - Socrates

The world consists
of daily fire fights
and constant skirmishes.

Beginning
and beginning anew
require the most personal
type of valor.

Loss and change
can drain
even a hero's spirit.

Just showing up for life
sometimes demands
more courage
than you think
you can muster.

Look within.

To be a man
demands a warrior's heart.

I know there is one
beating in your chest.

Listen to it.
- mce

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

A Moment's Decision

Sometimes
the dice
simply cry out
to be rolled:
pass them bones
over, God;
baby needs
a new pair
of shoes.

_ mce

One More Princess Poem

I peered into the dark moat
surrounding your heart,
no bridge in sight,
recognized the danger
and leaped in anyway
hoping to swim safely across.
Only you can know
what happened next.
- mce

The Nocturnal Predator

Loneliness
came hunting
last night.

Carefully, it stalked my cabin,
searching every black corner,
knowing it would find me
awake and solitary in the darkness.

It did.

- mce

Post-Coital Tristesse

If, in the afterglow of passion,
we two, spent and glistening,
cannot fall back and gaze
into our best friend's eyes,
what do we really have?
- mce

The Y Chromosome Decoded

Should women
truly learn
men's hearts,
convents
would flourish.
- mce

Monday, July 27, 2009

Invocation And Entreaty

Sing, Muse,
the broken dreams
of an aging man.
Even in my ruin,
lend me your voice.
So much yet to say
in these waning days.
Share with me
the divine fire
of inspiration
that I might breathe
a few final words
before I must move on.
Sing, Muse,
do not abandon me yet:
let your songs be mine
a little while longer.
- mce

Old Man, Early Morning

The older I get, the more difficult
each awakening morning.
Tired and achy,
dazed and wondering,
another day arrives
on the heels of nightmares,
fragmented dreams,
disturbing visions.
Sleep, I know, however fitful,
but oh, Sweet Lady Repose,
will you ever visit my bed again?
- mce

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Enjoying My Winnings

The unexpected sound
of creek water flowing
in the still of morning;
better by far
than winning the lottery
or, maybe,
in a sense,
the same thing.
- mce

Alienation

If you don't know
your watershed,
the names
of local trees
and plants,
who grows
what you eat,
where your
waste goes,
and what
generates
your electricity,
how do you know
where you are,
much less
who you are?
We are local
or we are nothing
at all.
- mce

Thursday, July 23, 2009

The Great Misreading

"Dominion over all the earth..."

This was a gift granted
that we might,
through nurture and husbandry,
earn our way back to Eden,
never a command
to ravish
and ruin the earth
for profit and ease.

When a god
kindly provides you
a fresh creation
and a second chance,
be aware that
the work of your hands
engenders providence.

What you make of it,
you make of yourself.
- mce

Job/Work: The Contrast V 2.0

Leaving this valley
to make some money.

The cacophony of toil
in the wider world:
air break blast,
traffic blare,
hydraulic whine,
compressor knock.

Ears and heart assaulted
by the necessary noise
of getting things done.

But later, back
in the patch,
blueberries
repose in stillness,
fat, indigo droplets
awaiting the touch
of my gathering hands.

At most, the earth sighs,
the breeze whispers,
the birds intone
songs ever fresh.

Real work
without din
or commotion.

The perfect blend
of effort and silence;
meditation, not drudgery,
quiet and complete;
the healing consolation
of honest sweat
and human doing.

This is possible;
this is nearby.

Blessed relief.
- mce

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Petition

Come to me, love.

Put your body in my hands;
let your heart snuggle in mine.
Be the voice in my throat,
my warmth against the chill.

Together holds delights
solitary cannot imagine.

Let us sing, love, a duet
sweet as this morning bird song,
notes intertwined, filling
the day's freshness with harmony.

Only trust, love, and let the music begin.

We will teach each other songs
unimaginable alone.

Only sing with me, love.

All of this and more awaits.

Shooting Craps Or Karma?

Once, desperate
for freedom
I quit the game,
walked out the door
and didn't look back.

Now, reduced to a car full
of basic belongings
and a little cash on hand,
I have accomplished
the bare minimum
I thought must suffice.

No woman,
no kids,
no mortgage,
no boss,
no chains.

Fine.

But in the marrow
of emancipation,
something stirs.

The needs
for community,
companionship
and home
tug at my heart's
hard won, but
lonely freedom.

Somewhere,
the road must end.

Somewhere,
the end
must become
a beginning.

Perhaps
it comes down
to making
a choice.

Could this be
the time
and the place?

Only one way
to know:

shake them bones;
roll them dice;
get back
in the game;
take a chance.
- mce

4:30 Am Darkness

Why do I
always wake up
exactly where I am,
uncertain where
exactly that is?
- mce

Monday, July 20, 2009

A Morning Visitor At LZ Serenity

Blueberry Bhikkhu

Picking berries
for a buck and a half
a pound;

scuffling
for minimum wage
day jobs;

selling my shit
on Ebay
to make the rent:

the amazing
creativity
and hustle
involved in
just being poor.

Step outside
the hoople
safety net
and you notice
the details;
you scour
each moment
for every dollar.

Want bites
and makes you
pay attention.


Rich folks
must spend
large amounts
on Birkenstocks
and mindfulness
seminars.

I just wake up,
and wake up:

a mendicant monk
in a hungry world.
- mce

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Kindle Prices Reduced - Ned Ludd Responds...

Dear Sirs:

Send me no more offers
for your unnecessary, $300,
bullshit electronic gadget.

Nothing fits the hands and heart
better than the heft
of a printed and bound book.

Nothing ever will.

Contemptuously,
Ned.

- mce

Not In War Only

Times show up in life
when a man must decide
to face the fire or to flee.

They have visited me before
with fabulously mixed results.

Now again I hear,
if only in imagination,
the sound of bullets,
the whine of shrapnel,
the drone of rotors,
whispering to me:

Your life; your choice;
stand your ground
or run away.

May my heart choose wisely.
- mce

Fatherhood

Not an easy thing
to be the father of sons.

Inevitably, you must
disappoint them;
inevitably, they must
turn away from you.

Embrace the necessity
of this distancing.

Do not become
an impediment
to the world
they must inherit,
the world that
you can never know.

Be joyful.

Trust that what
you have planted
will flourish
beyond your reach.

Dream the futures
you will never see.
- mce

The Magic of Vaccinium Corymbosum

Sunshine slowly warms
my aching, Yankee neck.

Disappointments
and failures slip
far away, seem vague.

Stretch, touch, pluck,
gather and enjoy.

Experience enchantment
in a handful of blueberries.

Nature's healing charms,
cast widely, within reach,
available for the picking.
- mce

"Not Universal Love, But To Be Loved Alone."

Be my lover
and I will bring you
blueberries and love songs,
smiles and sunshine.

Let the mad world
spin violently
out of control
as it always has,
as it always will.

Blueberries and love songs,
smiles and sunshine;
respite within chaos.

Only take my hand, love:
no better life is possible.
- mce

Be Here Now

An unexpected chill
kisses this soft, July morning:
a delectable shiver arouses
my still sleepy body.

The world delights
in providing tiny,
precious surprises,
if only we notice,
and appreciate.

Awakening involves more
than simply getting out of bed.
- mce

Friday, July 17, 2009

No Need To Kiss More Frogs

When you reach
that unexpected point
where you understand
that no magical person
will be showing up
to save you,
life suddenly becomes
very interesting,
indeed.
- mce

Simple Gifts - for Steve and Nadine

A few beers,
good friends,
shared food
and conversation.
These little things
provide shelter
from the storm.
These little things
are not so little
at all.
- mce

Thursday, July 16, 2009

Spring Creek Surprise

The rushing sound
of creek water
punctuates the quiet
of morning:
God murmurs ecstasy.
- mce

I'll Be Ready In A Minute...


A night of storms,
thunder, lightening,
downpours.
Woke to four feet
of water racing down
the creek bed
dry for over a month.
Nature: a woman
who changes her clothes
and her mind
in a minute.
Treat her like a wife;
tell her she looks fine;
stay out of her way.
- mce

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Walking In Tennessee, Remembering Greece


Frost heave,
water wash,
root pull:
implacable forces
of nature,
ever patient,
never sleeping.

This WPA erosion wall
built of heavy,
hand-placed stone,
not seventy years old,
now crumbling.

Knossos, Mycenae, Troy:
what remains
but rock, roots,
ruins and rubble?

Ever striving,
we imagine
ourselves the masters
of what we touch.

We craft the world,
mark it grandly
with great skill,
shape it
to our design,
but only for awhile.

No matter the effort,
our best creations
devolve to
random heaps
of broken masonry
trod upon
by clueless tourists.

In the end,
only the earth abides.
- mce

(Click on the above photo to see it full sized.)

An Eternal Question Regarding Progeny

Children: why do they arrive
with such a huge price tag,
but no instruction manual?
- mce

The Erotica Of Awakening

Morning elegance:
birdsong and sunlight
radiate potential;
this bright day
renews an offering
of hope and desire.

I don't deserve it;
no one does.

A bird does not
deserve the sky;
a tree does not
deserve the earth.

Existence, God,
fate and people,
owe us nothing.

No matter that
I am a flawed man,
an impure concoction
of good and evil
stumbling like a drunk
through this tainted,
gorgeous garden
of Creation.

I will take life
into my arms like a lover
for as long
as she will have me,
caress her, whisper to her,
embrace her, enter her,
cleave unto her,
penetrate her mysteries
with all the energy
I can muster.

And when
we are both spent,
our ephemeral coupling
inevitably over,
the climax of being
finally reached,
I will die satisfied,
breathlessly content,
thankful to have been
simply a man,
simply in the world.
- mce

No Saints, No Monsters - for RME

Life is not
a black and white
photograph.

At our best,
we are never
innocent;
at our worst,
never guilty.

Reality comprises
infinite shades
of gray.

Fumbling through
the fog of life,
we hurt
and are hurt
in turn,
love and are
loved in turn.

Neither feels
from inside
as it appears
from outside.

You can never know
another man's blues,
never feel
another man's pain.

Accept that.

Be slow to judge,
hope your sins
are forgiven,
forgive those
who have sinned
against you.

If you wish to be human,
there is no other choice.

Compassion, that most
demanding virtue:
absolutely difficult,
equally necessary.

Practice, fail, continue.

There is no other life.
-mce